Stirred, not shaken

Motherhood is a journey filled with love, joy, and countless rewards. However, it's also one of the most challenging roles I’ve taken on. The responsibilities seem endless, the pressure to excel in every aspect of life, overwhelming. As a mother, it's natural to strive for success not only in nurturing your children but also in pursuing your ambitions and dreams. Yet, it’s finding the balance between being ambitious and being present in the moment with your kids, that often feels like an uphill battle.

Ambition is a driving force that propels us towards our goals and aspirations. Whether it's advancing in our careers, pursuing further education, or following creative pursuits, ambition fuels our desire for personal growth and fulfillment. However, in the midst of striving for success, it's easy to get caught up in the whirlwind of busyness and lose sight of the precious moments unfolding right in front of us.

 For myself, the struggle to balance ambition with presence is all too real. The guilt of not being fully present with my children, while chasing my dreams has weighed heavily on my heart. I wonder if I’m doing enough, giving my children the attention and love they deserve. The pressure to excel in my professional and personal life has lead to feelings of inadequacy and self-doubt.

But here's the truth: I’ve been doing my best. I’m learning It's okay to feel overwhelmed at times, to question whether I’m striking the right balance between ambition and presence. What's important is that I keep showing up, for children and myself. What I want matters too.

Learning to let go of perfectionism and embrace imperfection. Life is messy, unpredictable, and imperfect – and that's okay. Instead of striving for perfection, I’m trying to focus on being present and showing my children love and support in whatever way I can. Showing love for myself, by still developing myself. 

 In conclusion, I’m learning that to find the balance between personal ambition and presence in motherhood, is an ongoing journey. A journey with challenges and rewards. I guess there really isn’t one size fits all.

I’m telling myself it’s okay for me to feel overwhelmed at times, whilst I keep pinching myself to remember that I am doing my best. Best to embrace imperfection, prioritise self-care, seek and accept, support from others.

Best to also water me, so I can blossom.